My Biggest Fear

I was so happy a few weeks ago when we turned the clocks back. I am not a fan of it getting darker earlier in the day, but I love that it gets light earlier. Why, you ask? Because when I walk the kids to the bus stop in the mornings it's nice being able to see where we are walking, and when I walk back home, alone, it's nice to not be scared to death. When school first started, I was ready to have Junior install an outdoor wireless camera so that if something happened to me, he would know.

Sounds crazy, right? The thing is, the kids bus stop is at the end of our driveway. Our driveway is a little wooden bridge that goes over a creek. The creek is surrounded by trees and bushes, and is the perfect place for someone to hide. When it is pitch dark out, and I can only see right in front of myself, it tends to get a little scary. Or, maybe it's better to say that I tend to scare myself, thinking that someone is waiting to grab me as I come back across the bridge. Junior always says they would bring me right back because I am such a, well, you get the point.

The thing is, I know that I am just being paranoid. I know that more than likely, no one is waiting to jump out at me. But, having a wireless surveillance camera outside might give me the peace of mind that I crave. Because even now, with it getting light out earlier, I am still having to use a flashlight in the mornings. I still panic a little when I come across the bridge. I still open the door quickly, and lock it tight when I get inside.

Now, don't laugh at me. I am fine when Junior is home in the mornings. I am fine when I walk to the bus stop with the kids. It is only when I am completely alone that I freak out. I think it is because I worry that if something did happen to me, no one would know about it until it was too late. This is why an outdoor security camera would be perfect for us. Junior can chose between Vivotek, Lorex, or SVAT, and decide which one best fits our needs. I want something that will record all the time. That way, if something does happen one morning, Junior will have it all on tape.

So tell me, what are you afraid of?