Moments

Sometimes there are moments. Good moments, bad moments, a-ha moments. Today I had a few of those moments. I'll share the good moment first, cause it was a really great moment. One I will cherish forever.We were walking into Wal-Mart in the rain. Of course, there were no dry buggies. (for all you non-southerners, that's a shopping cart) I send Ryan to the other door to look for one, I look by the registers, and Junior takes the girls to find one along the front of the store. We all found one, so we ended up with two more than we needed. But that really has nothing to do with my story, so I'll move on. I hear Brandi say something to Junior, and the two of them take off on their own. I see them looking at cards. I walk on by. Later, they are in the bakery. I pretend I don't see. When we check out, Junior sends the kids to the fun center to play. I refuse to look at what they got, so he takes it to the kids, and I see them filling out the card. When we get in the car, they present me with a beautiful card thanking me for being "a very special mom". Then Boo gives me a brownie cake that says "we love you". It was all I could do not to cry. I asked what I did to deserve it, and she said it was because I am the "bestest, sweetest mom in the whole world!". Remind me NEVER to complain about my kids again.My bad moment happened in Wade's. We were eating, and I suddenly felt very sick. I was eating grilled cheese and fries. I didn't even finish half. We had to leave the restaurant because I was that sick. I started feeling better, and Del called so I went to work. We were there for a while when I started feeling not so well again. Only this time I was shaking as well. (Here's the A-Ha moment) I decided to check my blood sugar, since I had the free monitor in my bag. I check it, and it's 55. Yup, 55. I ate some froot loops, which was the only snack the kids had lkeft. When I got home I called mom and she said I probably have diabetes. What fun! I also recieved the "I'm worried about you, loose weight or die" speech. I know I need to lose weight. I'm not stupid. It's just not so easy for me. I don't know why. I know what I need to do, I just can't do it. I'm weak, I know. But anyway, I don't feel like getting into all that right now. I want to savor the bestest mom feeling!So I'm off to bed. I need to work at 9 in the morning and I'm beat. I'll be back tomorrow! Until then........