Yes, I am quoting a Pink song, who happens to be my new favorite singer. And no, that picture up there has nothing to do with this post, but I found it on my camera from a trip to the zoo a few months ago, and it's adorable...I mean, a monkey and it's baby...so I just had to share it. But anyway, I used to listen to only country music, but when I started driving all day, every day, it became really annoying to listen to the same songs over and over again every day. My van doesn't have a CD player, or a way for me to plug in my MP3, so I started to randomly listen to different radio stations. The first toime I heard Perfect by Pink, I was hooked. She is awesome.
I think I was talking about bad decisions. We've all made them. Some of us have made more than others, and recently, I made a really, really bad decision.
I started smoking again.
I hate it. I don't know why I do it, but I do. At first I blamed all the stress in my life. I was, and am, struggling with money, and I worry about it all the time. Smoking hasn't helped the issue, because cigarettes are not cheap, which means I am spending money that I can't really spare on them.
It's a vicious cycle. I remember how easy it was for me to quit 10 years ago, but I am having a hard time this go around. I wake up every morning convinced I can quit that day, but it hasn't happened yet. I know that if I don't stop, I am going to end up sick. Really sick. We all know what can happen to smokers.
I really need to quit.