Big question, huh?I bet you're wondering why I'm asking, right?
To be honest, there is no reason other than my own curiosity.
It has been a long time since I have used the word hate about a person. I hate things, like spiders and having to get up so early every morning. I hate that I am unable to commit to a diet/exercise regimen so that I can lose weight and get healthy. I hate that I have no willpower. But I don't hate people, and I'm going to tell you why.
Hate hurts.
It consumes.
I know this, because I have seen what it can do. It becomes all you ever think about, and all you ever talk about. It makes a person feel better about themselves to downgrade another person, which is just sad. I would rather feel good about the things I do to improve the lives of others, not the things I do to tear other people down.
Now, I do hate things people do. I have no patience whatsoever for people who stay in abusive relationships, and I think there is a special place in hell for people who hurt children. Okay, so maybe I do hate people who hurt children. I guess there is an exception to everything. I am not trying to make myself look like this perfect woman who loves everyone. I don't love everyone. In fact, I dislike a lot of people. I have been guilty of talking about people, and it is not something I am proud of, and it's something I have worked hard not to do.
The hate I am talking about is the stuff that makes you do stupid things. The hate that makes you hurt people, not only physically, but emotionally. I watch everyday as hate hurts someone I love, which hurts me.
Can I do anything to make these feeling go away? No, because I can not change someone else's heart. I can just love with all of mine, and hope that somehow makes a difference.